Have You Changed Since You Were A Child?
This is my documentary about bullying, but this page contains a vivid description. It might make you very depressed. You can skip this page.
In Junior High School
As the former teacher said, I had been bullied for more than a year.
When I entered the classroom, they always said to me, "Get out of
here!", "Go to Hell!" or "Die!"
When I was walking in the
corridor, they flung dusty rags at me.
The guy sitting behind me
kept throwing the eraser waste at me.
Nobody wanted to be my friend because they didn't want to get involved. Nobody allowed me to speak. Nobody allowed me to smile.
Even if they did something terrible to me, I no longer felt anything. I became apathetic.
I didn't want to go to school anymore so I made myself sick on purpose, then I got a fever as I planned and I could be absent from school. But, I had to go to school the next day because I got better. Actually I didn't tell my parents that I was bullied, because I didn't want to make them worried.
When I entered the classroom in the morning, it was terrible! --- The board eraser was on my desk with all the eraser waste. Besides this, the garbage can was upside down on my desk, and also, brooms and garbage was around my seat.
On top of that, one guy told me, "If you die, everybody will become happy."
I started thinking about suicide because of what he said. If I did that, I might go to hell so I started researching about hell actually. I had been escaping from the reality for years.
But, only music was my reason for living. If I didn't love music, I would have commited suicide. Music saved my life.